Wednesday, October 30, 2019

"...pastries"


In October 2014, Ezekiel Emanuel published an essay in the Atlantic called “Why I Hope to Die at 75.” Because Emanuel is a medical doctor and chair of the University of Pennsylvania’s department of medical ethics and health policy, as well as a chief architect of Obamacare, the article stirred enormous controversy.
Emanuel vowed to refuse not only heroic medical interventions once he turned 75, but also antibiotics and vaccinations. His argument: older Americans live too long in a diminished state.
I often get, from the people who want to dismiss me, “You know, my Aunt Nellie, she was clear as a bell at 94, and blah-blah-blah …” But as I said in the article, there are outliers. There are not that many people who continue to be active and engaged and actually creative past 75. It’s a very small number.
In the early 1980s, we had a theory that as we live longer, we’re going to stay in better health. You know, at 70, we’re going to be like our parents were when they were 50. Well, if you look at the data, maybe not. We’re having more disabilities. We have people with more problems. And even more important, for most people, is the biological decline in cognitive function. If you look at really smart people, there aren’t that many writing brand-new books after 75, and really developing new areas where they are leading thinkers. They tend to be re-tilling familiar areas that they’ve worked on for a long time.
I would like to maintain my vigor, my intellectual capacity, my productivity, all the way through to the end. But I think we also need to be realistic—that’s not the way most of us are going to live.
The world will exist fine if you happen to die. Great people, maybe even people greater than you, like Newton and Shakespeare and Euler—they died. And guess what? The world’s still there.
The above is a very abridged version of the original essay.

...but ya gets the point. 

I strongly believe we should be allowed to die when we're ready. I'm not far off from this. I'll be 70 next summer. I have a chronic condition that my doctor has told me has taken 10 to 15 years off my lifespan.
So effectively right now I'm really 80 or nearly 85.

Not the joke it sounds like.

Every year, and now every few months my abilities diminish. 

I get it. 
Personally I see two to four.

When I'm in hospital which is often now. I hear other elders weep, and pray for their assorted gawds to come save them. 
This is why I despise religions they rob you of dignity when you need it most.
Me I never believed any of that noise so I'm fine in that department. If Euthanasia were legal I'd go before Spring,...or with the first buds.

I'm very tired, and have become weaker. ...who cares. Still I've done what good I could, and want to go. Now. This before I end up a lump of suffering flesh. 
This in the corner of some dreary ward being poked at by medical students that would rather be getting laid, and drunk.

However I, and so many are condemned to a lingering end of pain want, and lonliness. The medical people that treat us have one goal,...keep me alive. No thought remotely of the quality of that life.

We're just old beat up cars they're tinkering on, and making jokes about. Yeah I hear that when they think I'm still out.

So 75 sounds good 70 even better.

We're supposed to die a while after we become elders. 
I always thought it nuts to deny this. Yeah I want to have beautiful days. I want to laugh with old friends with my sister, and cousins. I want to enjoy hot baths weird movies the fucking beach pastires, and cats.

However no,...I do fucking not want to live forever.

Who would if they thought it through.

I want to go on my Terms.

"~X~"

On the other hand we're all dying of Loneliness.

"~B~"

Bob da Bunny watches us, and our troubles from space.
He prays for us.

"...simple"

"And now here is my secret, a very simple secret:
It is only with the Heart that one can see rightly;
what is essential is invisible to the eye"

"The Little Prince"

"...hearts"

"In peace in our own hearts"
"In peace with our neighbors"

“Rumors of War“

I got caught up in thread on a friends page. This about the recent events in the Middle East. A poster was going on about how this nation is the worst in all history the most genocidal. I said we were amateurs at it. Other’s were far worse. His point was we did it in peacetime. I replied:
“It’s not peacetime hasn’t been since July 1914. That following August WW1 started. The first part of the 20th century’s 100 Year’s War. It ended on September 11th 2001.”
This is the messy aftermath. We call it the Terror Wars.
Historians will call it something else as time, and distance makes them clearer. This btw was the Second Hundred Year’s War. Historians are just beginning to recognize this,…we were so close we didn’t realize it was really one long awful War.
The First Hundred Years War was in the 14th century. So no all of our crimes after WW2 were part of that greater War. Korea the Cold War the overthrow of governments Vietnam all that. The other side with their murders overthrows, and destabilizations them too.
The sooner the blood drenched hand of the 20th century with it’s deadly passions failed ideologies revolutions that gave the world mountains of dead. Their perversions of science, and culture demented religions…all that.
As it dies away the sooner the 21st century with it’s unique problems, and hopes can begin.

“Head of State“


He’s a vindictive child. He is without restraint empathy introspection calmness compassion wit judgement foresight or a dog. If he were a private citizen his family would be caring for him,…keeping him from causing trouble. Unfortunately he’s President of the United States of America.
This is why there is an ongoing process to remove him.
Like Speaker of the House Pelosi said she prays for him.
He spurned these prayers, but she persists. Even as she works to remove him. I tried praying for him. Even the disturbed in my experience have lucid days.
I prayed he’d have such a day. In that brief time he’d come to us tell the truth of his disabilities, and resign for the good of the republic. This is the best I can dream for him.

"Tiger Tiger Burning Bright"

As you comrades know I have a feeling we have multiple lives.
Yeah just fucking swell that.
I feel I was many things many kinds of lives.
However fire, and flying are a theme.

Keeps coming up,...since I was little.

I think in one way or other the above is how I died.
This is some war in some place I burned in the skies.
All in all an interesting death.

"But wait There's More"




"...plus 10"



My Life Since.
I don't Know if it's been a Dream
or a Nightmare.

"Spring Summer Fall~2019"


"...suppression"



Black Barbie Rules!

Mind you I had a long rant screed in mind.
Ya know something about the suppression of other modes of beauty.
This by racist bullshit all that.

However I'm tired,...gimme a break I need naps now.
Anyway I'll get to it later.

This will have to do for now.
Still when I was a little Queer. A little sweetie pie Sissy boy. How I would have loved this doll!